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A Long Goodbye
I am so sorry that I have not written a post in over 8 months…….I became very busy with the holidays and with traveling many places for Quinn’s cheer competitions, Colin’s sports etc. All things that I am so thankful for the memories. I had a second craniotomy in February which was so easy in regards to the brain but gave me numerous issues in other parts of my body. Who knew that brain surgery may make your liver mad right. My liver has been extra mad since and has been causing me lots of issues. I had lots of fluid on my abdomen and had to have it drained. I found out the the drug Enhurtu that I was on was no longer working and now today I found out my current drug is also not working.
My bloodwork is not good. My bilirubin which is a major test for my liver function continues to rise causing me to start turning yellow. Today my oncology team told me that my current medicine is not working and that I am probably looking at months to live. Months…….how many? Only God knows. I will start taking some chemo pills in hopes that they slow things down, keep them contained and give me low side effects. Holy Moly have I been dealing with some crazy side effects the past few months. My Dr mentioned today that the amount of treatments that I have had (14 in her notes since she condensed some but 17 in my notes) is something she has not yet seen in another patient. I guess I did give this a good fight. It’s hard to know that the fight is almost over.
I remember eight years ago when I was diagnosed i never thought I would make it this far. I never thought that I could have cancer, work, be a wife, fundraise for the Jimmy Fund, make so many memories and most importantly be a mom for so long to Quinn and Colin. I thank God everyday for the past eight years with them and Trevor. I hope that they will be ok and will be surrounded with love and support when I am gone.
I thank everyone who has showed us so much love and support over the past few years. We were definitely shown the true meaning of friends and family through this. Thank you for all of the prayers and thoughts you gave us. I felt truly blessed and am so thankful. This may be my last post as I am going to focus on making more memories when I am feeling good.
Thank you all again. Sending you all my love.
12 messages left for April
Anne and dad We love you ,
Monique Duquette I love you April! Thank you for being the best role model and mentor. I am eternally grateful for having met you at UMassD my freshman year. I will forever cherish all the memories. Sending peace and love your way forever and always.
Monoson April, you are an inspirational and unbelievably strong person. I hope you will continue to feel good while making the most fantastic and happy moments ever.
Audra Sending you so much love and will continue to pray for you each night. ❤️
Deb Morse April, there really are no words. You have been so strong and have fought so hard. I am very happy Quinn and Colin have had the chance to know what a wonderful mother you are. You are all in our thoughts and prayers.🙏
Sara Stewart April, I will always remember you as the life of the party at UMass D. You lived life to the fullest and continued to live that way throughout the past 8 years. When you first announced you had Cancer, I had flashbacks to my Mom who was close to the same age as you when she was diagnosed. She was gone 9 short weeks later. I am so thankful your strength, resilience and modern medicine gave you 8 more years with your kids. As someone who understands the profound loss of losing a parent, trust me when I say they will treasure every second of those 8+ years. Sending love and light to you, Trevor, Quinn and Colin. <3
Mary April, this brought me again to tears, and I am so sorry that you have been having to endure this. You have handled it so well and have been so strong for your family. You have given cancer the sass that I have always loved about you! It’s not fair. Fuck cancer. Love you!
Missy ❤️😘❤️😘❤️
Jeannine April you are proof that angels exist on earth! So sorry for everything you and your family have been through. You are incredible and inspiring. Love never dies. God bless all of you!
Lynn Bailey April you are the true definition of a warrior ❤️! I am heart broken to read all that you have gone through. We worked together so long ago but you made a lasting impression of being a good and fun friend. You have created a beautiful family and you are a beautiful person. My memories of you will always be of the awesome person you are❤️. Always in my heart. Lynn
Janet Wakefield May God bless you, Sweet Pea!💔
Melanie April, your words break my heart. You are the most amazing mom, wife, cousin, leader, fighter, I know.
The tremendous courage you have shown and the life you have lived in spite of what this world through at you goes beyond being impressive or inspirational but redefining what the word means in my mind entirely. I know we don’t see each other often but I love you so much and cherish every time we have spent together and being able to see your adventures and memories on facebook. Your smile and your light spreads further than you know.